So many rules

I didn't realize that there were so many rules to life. Think positively to be happy. Think big to succeed. Don't just think, but do. If a guy doesn't call u in two weeks he's JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU (Oprah). If a guy calls you too early, he's plain desperate. If you answer the phone before too rings, you look too desperate. If you wait more than two rings, he'll get antsy.

Omigoodness, people. Can't we just live a simple life? No rules, no stupid games to play?

Because I'm just about to scream--------JUST CALL ME ALREADY

Did you know that loving urself takes a lot of hard work? Sometimes it's really difficult, especially when u feel that horrible feeling u get when u've embarrassed urself or when u realize that it's hard enough for enyone else to love you. Don't get me wrong, I am totally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes I feel as though the sun's uv rays are just too much for me and I'd rather stay in the dark shade. Feels safer.

But today is a new day! I'm bolder, strengthened by my weaknesses. What's the point in not taking any risks? There's no point in life if you don't risk anything. I'm risking my heart, that precious museum ornament i had always carefully dusted and put in a glass case protected by laser beams. I'm risking other's opinion in me, something which has deterred me from fully emerging as me. I'm risking my future, something I've always wanted to play safe. Now, I just want an adventure. We'll start with the Ghoster Coaster, of course. But eventually, eventually. I'll reach Top Gun. And during one of those loops I'm gonna fly off and create my own course.

It's a new day.